You know that sound? The sound of an old record that just keeps skipping over and over and over and over? Insert that sound here. That is the sound that I hear every time I light a cigarette. I'm starting to feel like Bill Murray's character in Groundhog Day. I wake up every day thinking that it's a new day, but I end up repeating the same exact steps as I did the day before. Fortunately, I don't actually have Sonny & Cher's I Got You, Babe trapped in my noggin every time that I smoke. I promised from the get go that this blog would be blatantly honest, so here it is...I haven't tried that hard to quit smoking. I've tried to convince myself that I have, but it's not true. If I want a cigarette, I have one. I'm beginning to question if I even want to quit. "Um, yes, Lauren, you want to quit. It's a disgusting and expensive habit." "Then why am I smoking as I type this?" "Because you're a quitter." "Apparently not..." Now I've confused me, myself, and I, haha! Seriously though, I'm sick and tired of sounding like a broken record. As of right now I have 2 cigarettes left. I cannot promise that these will be my last 2, but I'm vowing to you all and myself that I will try my absolute hardest to kick the habit this time, cold turkey. If I say I'm going to do something, by golly I do it! It might take me a few weeks, but I WILL QUIT SMOKING! Everybody still with me? Great! Let's move on to something a little more positive...
I finally joined Planet Fitness last week! They were offering a fantastic deal that I couldn't pass up. For $20 per month I have access to both facilities, I can take a guest with me as often as I'd like, and I get unlimited tanning. I will take full advantage of 2 of those perks. I'll give you a hint. If you were to trace my family tree I'm almost positive that you'd discover that I am kin to Casper, the friendly ghost and I have no plans to look like we're not related. I'll also have access to some sweet massage chairs that I intend to use every dang visit! I signed up for my membership online and I have yet to actually step foot in the gym. It has been so long since I've been a gym member that I didn't own appropriate clothes or footwear. How sad! Today I took care of that issue and I'm so pumped to get in there and kick my own booty this week!
With the exception of Chinese Friday and a few naughty snacks at a birthday party today, I've been a good girl this week. I swear Grand China uses some sort of ancient Chinese secret in their food. I had my usual General Tso's, eggroll, and fried dumplings. One would think that eating all of that mess would totally ruin my Saturday morning weigh ins. Alas, this morning my scale told me that I weigh 249 lbs. I can't lie, I did a little victory dance immediately after I saw that number flash up. To know that I am finally closer to 200 lbs than I am to 300 lbs is my little victory! That's 2 lbs down from last week and 18 lbs since I began my journey. This puts me 50 lbs away from my goal of 199 lbs by June 18th. As you'll see below, I actually wasn't too unhappy to be taking my weekly selfie!
Photobomb brought to you by my flat iron...
I seriously need to buy a full length mirror. I just realized that this is the same outfit that I was wearing in my first awkward selfie. For the first time I can actually see a difference in my body! A friend of mine at work had told me that she could tell I was losing, especially in my neck and face. I sincerely told her that it was great to know that it didn't look like my neck was trying to eat my face anymore! No, really, that's what was happening. I also saw a friend of mine from high school that I haven't seen in years today. (Hi, Ashley!) She shared with me that she loves my blog and that she looks forward to it every week. Words just cannot express how much that touches my heart! I'm so honored and grateful to have such wonderful friends and family that keep me motivated every single day. Until next time...
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